I was kind of terrified by the thought that my teenage years are now over when I haven't even done half the things "a teenager is supposed to do".
So I had this super emotional ramble on tumblr about how, from now on, I will live my life to the fullest!!! blah blah
I just wanted to write about this whole thing a bit, about growing up, growing old, about Saturn.
Saturn is the hourglass, it reminds us of our restrictions. It rules time, and any other boundaries.
It is the last visible planet in the solar system, it is the edge between us and unknown possibilities.
In medical astrology it rules our bones and our skin - the physical boundary.
Speaking of the body, when Saturn has traveled 90° through the sky since the moment of our birth, when Saturn is in a square aspect to our natal Saturn, about 7 years will have passed.
7 years is the time it takes for all the cells in our bodies to renew themselves.
Physically, after seven years, no part of us is the same person anymore.
Then, with saturn having traveled 180° through the sky since our birth, it opposes our natal Saturn.
This is at the age of about 14, the rough patch of puberty.
When Saturn opposes itself, so to say, we challenge our own maturity, we become rebellious.
We might break rules or even laws, not listen to authority ("Shut up, mom!!"), but for me personally, and for many others, this shows in a "quirky/random phase".
The random phase my generation went through (also the emo/scene phase) was all about being different, not playing by the rules and being "soo misunderstood".
It was all about alienation "I'm not like those other kids, I'm different."
Saturn will have finished a full cycle through the zodiac wheel after about 29 or 30 years.
This is called the Saturn Return.
It's the crisis of "Oh no, the big 3 0!", where everybody realizes how old they are and feel the burden of being a real grown up adult.
After that, the second Saturn Opposition, the next rebellion is at the age of ~45. The midlife crisis.
The time where people tend to become immature and reckless again and think that they are as young as they feel and therefore say "fuck it" to maturity.
It's all a cycle that keeps repeating itself.
Realizing how old you are, then rebelling, then taking on responsibility again, abandoning that and wanting to be a child again, but then also wanting to be respected as an experienced adult....
Saturn keeps cycling through the skies and our relationship towards growing up keeps changing and evolving.
Saturn rules the sign of Capricorn and they usually show this quite well:
Capricorn, at a young age, are unusually mature and grown up.
However, the older they get, the more they embrace their inner child.
Their maturing process is kind of upside down.
(you might have noticed by now that Foster The People is my favourite band)
Tell me how you feel about your own process of growing up ! :)